the feeling

A lot of feelings going on.

and i did something crazy that i never think of i can do!

once upon a time, 

a failure of something draw up a circle for a girl in her life,

the girl live in the circle without stepping out,

till a day,

the girl finally can step out the circle with courage,

however,

it seems like the thing happen again,

and reduce the courage of the girl again. 

wondering......

thinking.....

waiting......

and, 

time pass by... tik tok tik tok....

a response,

an answer,

can change a person's life.... 

either happy or sad....

just a simple word....

as long as you face it,

the response or answer wouldn't be a problem!

the quotation

'The virtue of true love is not finding the perfect person,but loving the imperfect person perfectly.'

given by nikki lim...

hello, and the girl is blur blur and waiting~

❤

sem break

i'm having sem break now..
nothing much to do actually, went out with sulinn and weiyee, long time never meet them..
having fun with them in mid valley and the garden.. ate Zanmai sushi for lunch, and went to yum cha in elexis in the garden..
another trip, pavilion.. saw my college's friends there, took some pics, and head to meet my beloved sis (UK). she flight back here for a long time and i have no chance to meet her until that day.. we ate dessert in 'honeymoon', watched 3D rapunzel, and supper at pudu, reached home around 12am if not mistaken, thanks :)
other than this, i worked in beauty fair for 3 days, unfortunately, i was unwell during that 3 days =,=.. anyway, waiting for salary now..
and what's next? CHRISTMAS EVE~
i had been book by my friends whole day.. it' gonna be fun~ so looking forward to it :)

it rains this few days.. i look at the rain drop, it looks like my mood, down down down.. i have no idea why~ but somehow it does affect my mood.. all a sudden, i'm thinking, if i'm a pilot, in front of me got a long long long pathway, i will drive the aeroplane as fast as i could in order to fly up to the sky...
something is in my mind, but i just couldn't state it out~ i just hope christmas eve will come as soon as possible to clear my mind ...

1st sem in nilai

lots of crazy stuffs is going on in this semester..
my sisters in this university are nice to me, this elder sister..
ana, the youngest among three of us .. lots of admires, but she's taken by a friend of mine XDD
a cute sister .. we usually talk to each others whenever there is a rise of problem..
nikki, the second sister, who is taken also, a pretty girl.. same, usually hang out together and talk about everything..
a group of my friends that i usually hang out with, they take good care of me .. which i think it's damn nice :P
life over here is good ..

- i hit my head on the wall .. it's so loud .. and i felt dizzy and gonna faint that time :S
- exam coming .. god bless !
- did some 'crazy' stuffs .. it's damn unexpected .. but mostly is my friends who did it by using my name @@

anyway, my head, sometimes feel dizzy and pain .. today, in the morning, my roommate was like ' u're having fever' and i was like 'ok, then i felt asleep again ==' ..
tomorrow got business IT test >< , bless me ..

nilai's life

it's been a long time never update my blog..
i'm quite busy recently..

first
i'm taking maths in the first semester..it's quite hard for me to catch up since i got no basic for additional maths..but surprisingly, i got full marks for my first assignment.. YUPEE! but here come the second assignment..i hope i'm still able to get full marks this time, god bless.. among the three subject, i put lots of effort on it..cause according to my lecturer, whoever can't got A is consider poor in maths..so pressure :(

second
i join the 24 festive drum club..it's fun..it's just that my hand is a bit out of control ><'' have to practice more to make it smooth..when you hit the drum and listen to the sound, you can feel that your stress is totally out of body..the seniors are funny, so playing drum with them is joyful :)

third
oh no! i got two assignment and a test coming up..it's all due on next week :( .. and, i'm ill T___T .. i just finished the introduction of my economic assignment .. still got a long way to process.. ah, and thanks to my friends, most of them are aircraft students, lol .. they really take care of me lots :) i'm happy to be in nilai university college.. enjoy the life here :)

forth
i have been playing badminton on last friday to sunday.. everyday until midnight.. i like the wind and the air during midnight here.. it's so windy and fresh :) monday and tuesday practice drum.. and now i'm ill :( .. my body is out of energy now :(

the end, gonna continue with my assignment...

uni's life

it's been 6 days, im having my hostel's life.
everything is going smoothly, make new friends, having fun. orientation week was good, though tired, but fun. had settle all my stuffs, went out to giant and night market with friends.

apartment hostel
im sharing a room with a chinese girl who is from melaka. she is kind and friendly. chat with her sometimes when she is free at night. canteen food is 'so so', can't have breakfast, lunch and dinner all at canteen though, cause it is so costly. so i just have either lunch or dinner at canteen. is all have to be independent here, wash clothes with hand which is different from london and at home, as i use washing machine at home and w.machine and dryer in london. however, i enjoy my hostel's life.

friends
got to know some friends during the orientation week which is ended yesterday. there are 8 girls, and majority of them are studying aircraft. luckily i found a girl is taking same course with me. and, make some guy's friends as well. all friends are from different part of state and country. it's nice to know more friends, so that my life is not that boring in uni. i have a group, which is for the orientation night two weeks later, we got to perform at that particular night. the theme is 70 century. gonna dance and sing by then. quite looking forward but our leader, seem no news from him >.<

as a whole, my life in here, nilai uni college, which gonna change to nilai uni soon, is enjoyable. the enviroment is relax, just one thing, there are so many of monkeys around my hostel >.< sometimes they will steal your shirt without your notice, or when you forget to lock a door toward the balcony, they will smartly open the door and come into the corridor and find some foods from your rubbish bin outside of your room. this is what we call monkey, naughty and active! will upgrade more after i join club and activity and after i start my class.

goodbye

Holidays
it've been 3months for my holiday. I've been working full time and part time job. got to make new friends around and gain working expirence *which is communication*. and now, i've stop working for like a month *which i dislike*. it's boring without any studies and jobs. what t do at home? having a piggy's life - eat, sleep, watch tv, online. *that's the reason i got fat, oh no!*

Study
if sunday is consider as the beginning of a week, that's mean i still have a week left for my holiday. gotta proceed my studies *officially an university's student*. my course, i'm major in international business. gonna be a business woman in the future is a question that i heard the most. *don't know how to answer, perhaps?* i'm gonna move in to hostel on 25th or 26th this month. i'm gonna start my new life soon. *looking forward* i hope that i can get a friendly roommate. *pray*

Unforgettable
still remember i had experience an awkward and harsh moment last year? it will be a year on next month. if you ask me, have i recover from the case? i will say yes for the wound, and no! when you ever had a deep hurt from something, it's not easy for a person to forget about it. *just like me* i'm glad that the wound had recover, however, the mark on my hand, and the stitches on my waist, always remind me the pain. when i walk along the road, whenever a motorcycle pass by me, even i doesn't have any bag on my hand, my heart will pump as fast and as hard as it could. my body shakings, it's damn uncomfortable. really!

Some words
in this following 3 years, i will use all my strenghts to head for a bright future. i will stay healthy and take care of mysef  to be a brand new belinda. really need to study hard and smart to get into UOL, cass business school or imperial college of london! this is what i'm aiming for! if possible, apply for scholar, hopefully can, really need to pay hard work on it! nothing is impossible, never try never know! who know 3 years later, you will see a successful belinda standing in front of you. :) so goodbye, and will meet you during the holiday. god bless!

tough

me,
if you would like to find a sentence to describe about myself, that will be:
' a girl that lack of confidence, not brave, pessimistic and so on'. seemed all in negative.
however, from now on, that will be the opposite.
cause i believe there is nothing impossible, and there will be a way for you whatever happen.
i will stand firm on my feet and will oversome all the obstacles.
will remember all the helpful people, and the unhelpful people,
because of them, i get to know who is the one that will treat you good from the deep heart.
thanks for the lesson, i believe i will remember it my whole life.
for the past few years, i learnt many lessons- heartache and valuable.
it's time for me to grow up, im not a little girl anymore as you remember previously.
you may look down on me, but do trust me, in 3years time, i will become a brand new belinda.
in this following 3years, i will leave my family for studies, but also i will learn a lot.
first, independent. second, tough. third, mature. forth, smart.
future, is aways in our hand, if you grab it fast and tight, you will become well successful.
don't let any hope evade from you, brave to solve all the problem.
be optimistic, everything will be fine a day. a proverb in chinese:
' when a boat reaches the end of the bridge, it will eventually become straight.'